Fascinating. :)

Fascinating. :)


Meet me in Montauk

I tend to forget things. Thing which are not meant to be left behind.

I woke up afraid, looking around the room. And then there was this man asleep, lying down beside me. Hugging me tight. And as I move, he held me much closer then kissed my shoulders and whispered “I love you”. Who is he? I closed my eyes and tried to recall what happened the night before. Did I get drunk? I was never this wasted before. As I slowly opened my eyes I then remembered, he’s my man, I think I’m married and God! This is our room!

It happened for the fifth time and I’m hoping that I’ll still remember you when it hit me again. Wish I won’t forget. And if ever I did, I’m really praying that I’ll still return to the same memories again.

I’m afraid.


Since we’ve been together I remember,
I’ve been careful and dreaming and I wonder,
How love strongly change oneself,
How love made me fully blind and deaf.

I’m a seeker but now I dream,
Now I believe in every written Grimm.
Fantasy do come true,
You changed my script and wrote something new.

Never change my love,
You hit my heart and gave it a good throb.
Now I’m living in my everyday fantasy,
Happily ever after is my reality.

-xiangoli

Since we’ve been together I remember,
I’ve been careful and dreaming and I wonder,
How love strongly change oneself,
How love made me fully blind and deaf.

I’m a seeker but now I dream,
Now I believe in every written Grimm.
Fantasy do come true,
You changed my script and wrote something new.

Never change my love,
You hit my heart and gave it a good throb.
Now I’m living in my everyday fantasy,
Happily ever after is my reality.

-xiangoli




Who doesn’t love Friday? :)
My 5 year old kid loves Friday!
On her last note, all caps pa yan. :))

Who doesn’t love Friday? :)
My 5 year old kid loves Friday!
On her last note, all caps pa yan. :))


"Mommy, why do you always write?" Aizen asks. "Whenever I feel something, either happy, sad, excited, anything! I always get a pen and paper and write it down. I feel OK whenever I write down whatever I feel." I replied. "Mommy, I want to write too. Can you teach me?" She said. Then I responded "Write everything you love. What you like, and what makes you feel happy." She took my pen, an old notebook and started writing down everything she loves. She did a three page notes. Full of what she loves. :)

"Mommy, why do you always write?" Aizen asks. "Whenever I feel something, either happy, sad, excited, anything! I always get a pen and paper and write it down. I feel OK whenever I write down whatever I feel." I replied. "Mommy, I want to write too. Can you teach me?" She said. Then I responded "Write everything you love. What you like, and what makes you feel happy." She took my pen, an old notebook and started writing down everything she loves. She did a three page notes. Full of what she loves. :)


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I don’t need another me.

When you’re constantly showing everyone you’re doing great and you’re trying your very best to hide all the pain. So as everyone who’s anyone around you will feel happy whenever they are around you and you’re hoping somehow, everything that bothers you will eventually fade away. Still, it didn’t. And it never will. Because after all the hiding and denial, there will still be a night when all the feelings and thoughts come together. And you will be swallowed with all these sadness and phobias. All you could do is cry and physically hurt yourself to feel satisfaction. And you’ll repeat the same process all over again, try to be happy, and eventually explode.

-When will someone save me from all of this?